January 2010
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The Last Talk
It was something I really needed last night. I could say I’m glad that I talked last night about it; put things in perspective, even if I made a fool of myself, who has no backbone to their arguments. But I don’t care if I can’t hold myself in a conversation, not in that one at least. But I will get over you, all those feelings and attachments will die. Like you said,...
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To do this weekend...
Study ICS Lab #2, printed.
Make and Study more Art 42B Flashcards
Go over Anthro 30A notes
Finish Art 1A Reading
Start & Finish Sweatshirt Design (Back)
Art 42B Online Readings
Clean & Organize room
Exercise (sat sunday only—running, cardio, etc)
Check mail
Buy some groceries
Other things I can’t think of ._.
“I don’t know you
But I want you
All the more for that
Words fall...”
– Falling Slowly…
I love this song…totally relate to it.
Er..Attempt #2
This day, I must say was pretty different.
Woke up at 8..when I have work at 8, so that was pretty bad. Finished work, then headed on over to the Orange County Museum for a fieldtrip (who knows those still existed in college). I really liked the exhibit that was featured there. Too lazy to post up his name, but pretty much called “Discarded Spider.” Since it was a fieldtrip we were...
Am I the only one that misses the times we had...
Told myself I’d stop rambling about this on tumblr..but couldn’t help myself :(
Okay, attempt #1
pnoyboi14317:
chunkywunkie:
Attempt #1 in a while to document my day, especially here at UCI…
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So I woke up at 7ish today to finish some anthro readings, especially how it’s important that I participate in class. Did it ‘til around 8 or so to go take my ICS retake. Can’t believe that I didn’t pass the first try, but its okay, hopefully I get it this time around. Sadly I wasted...
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Okay, attempt #1
Attempt #1 in a while to document my day, especially here at UCI…
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So I woke up at 7ish today to finish some anthro readings, especially how it’s important that I participate in class. Did it ‘til around 8 or so to go take my ICS retake. Can’t believe that I didn’t pass the first try, but its okay, hopefully I get...
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Cosas que necesitan hacer hoy
As of 8:13 AM
Study for ICS Lab Exam #1 Retake
ICS Lab Exam Retake @ 9:00, ICS 183, finish latest at 10
Make a quick breakfast & lunch
Art History 11-11:50
Lunch
Upload yearbook photos
Start on long interview for Anthro
Anthro 1-1:50
ImageWorks 2-4
Work on Readings
Go back to dorms, rest, work on some ICS
ICS Lab 5-5:40
Yearbook Meeting @ 6:00
Light Dinner
Photoshoot with Andrew...
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Todoodododododo
As of 8:56 AM
Imageworks 8-12:30
Finish printed readings: Art History(x2), Anthro(x2)
Eat stuff I took from Pippins, haha.
Art 1A- 1:00-3:20
ICS 21 3:30-4:50
Eat Dinner with Liliana? :)
POWER Nap, not another 5 hour one, please
Workout!! (3-4 miles run (track?), arms + abs, one mile jog—if leg allows) (8-1, spend at least 1-2.5 hours there)
Email TA about Anthro page topic?
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I am a selfish person and I am sorry
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I realized that...
I am so worked up because I feel like I didn’t have a fair chance.
I’ve been selfish in going about all this.
I need to be the best I can be…for myself
I am capable for greater things
people can’t keep up with me
Forgiveness seems harder to give as days pass…if I ever want to forgive someone, I want to make sure its completely behind me.
it’s their...
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I honestly wish I can say something so sweet…something so heartfelt that would make me somehow…just be yours. Am I looking for something that’s not there? I don’t know if I’m being rational or not, but I feel so strongly towards it. I want to be yours. I miss our conversations, I miss the tenderness in your voice. I miss the happiness I would feel when I would talk...
I still miss you...
and it kills me that you probably don’t feel the same way..
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Random thought
I think my worst flaw is that I “villanize” (I realize its not a word, haha.) to a great extent. Honestly I feel that sometimes I have the justification to do so, but I feel that I might go overboard in the larger sense. I really don’t know. In most cases, when someone hurts me, they really do hurt me, especially how over the past years I have, I guess, become detached from...
Thoughts on Love's Allure
wordninja:
The thing about romance that has always gotten to me, my favorite moments in books or movies, is never the typical romantic moments. Its those small moments where the true depth of a relationship, the depth of a friendship that screams trust and dependance, those are the ones that leave me awake at night and unable to focus in class. The ones that make me want to cry because I don’t...
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Imageworks
I must say has such a therapeutic effect on me. Walking back in the rain I was excited to Pandora it on the Mac, eat lunch, relax, and be in good company of courteous, witty supervisors and coworkers. Maybe today is ‘cause work is after all my classes and I am done for today or ‘cause it is simply Friday. I’ve been feeling happier lately, and time has really been my medicine....
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Checklist 1/22/10
Wake up @ 6:00 6:50 8:30
Finish Wu Hung reading (if not finished by tonight)
Eat breakfast 7-7:30—eggs/entree, cereal, coffee, orange juice, croutons (haha)
PILATES @ 24 hour fitness MAYBE @ 8:30-10:00 (depending on weather, leave at 8) woke up too late, raining
Get ready for class Pack lunch (bagel w/ salmon, banana, water)
Change
Art History 11-11:50
Art History...
CAUGHT IN THE RAIN AGAINNNNN..
The Heart of the Matter
Photography
thejohnenriquez:
chunkywunkie:
put up one picture everyday! im trying it :)
I miss actually setting up shoots and illustrating the images that are in my head :(
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Photography
I miss you so much.
RDA WEEK
zomgneil:
Tomorrow’s the day :)
YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYYAYAYAYYAY!
Neily! I’m taking photos tomorrow! I’m guessing your cute self will be there :)
In the End...
I will kick ass in school
I will be the best photographer I can be (once I find the time D:)
I will be the best person I can be to the people who matter most
I will be healthy and constantly push my physical capabilities
I will be truly appreciated (and even loved) when the time comes
I will find a genuine respect and pride for myself.
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Checklist 1/20/10
Wake up @ 7:00
Study 42B Notecards
Print Lab Manual for exam
Finish Anthro 30A reading (SKIM) + annotations
Start Wu Hung reading + annotations too lazy…
Study 42B Notecards, Study 42B Notes for significance + context
Bring plastic bags for mounted stuff.
Breakfast (eggs, cereal, orange juice etc) 8-10am
Make bagel with cream cheese (x2?)
Pack lunch, banana, orange, bagel with...
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Futile coping
“If a tree falls in a forest and no one is around to hear it, does it make a sound?” alludes to my question, that “If you are a beautiful, sincere person, and no one is around to appreciate it, do those qualities still exist?” Similar to the tree (or the sound of a tree fall), these qualities are momentary, perishable and do not (and will not) last forever in the person...
Just keep going, keep going Jackie…don’t become the person you don’t want to be. stay strong, resilient. don’t let anything stop you, hinder you, hold you down. be triumphant. be scared. be doubtful. be fearful. give up. just fucking give up. look past it all. look towards the brighter future. you can do it. just keep going, just keep going.
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HW & Workout Holiday
Holiday…and I’m doing HW. This is what I get for putting off things…
Breakfast (Oatmeal, juice, crackers)
Study 42B Notecards (section1)
Read “Praise Famous Men”- 3 sections
Finish ICS Lab (have partner help me)
Watch Anthro film (30 minutes)
Lunch (vegetables, japanese left overs)
Study 42B Notecards (section2)
Print out readings, 42b and Anthro
Look up Jean...
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Shallow recollections;
Last night I was thinking how pathetic I am. Laying in bed, trying to focus on homework, when my mind was somewhere else. From all the busy days, causing mental and physical strain, I always want to look at the happy times. And recalling those happy times, all I have are the memories that you have left me. As I lay in bed, I try to relive all of them in its entirety: all is in detail yet played...
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Rawr
Written 12/31/09:
By the time this is published, it will be our one year anniversary…if it does not last that long, we will be maintaining a great friendship (unless there’s a 9 month period where you do not talk to me like with Winnie…hehe I kid)
However, with anything, I wonder. I doubt. I ponder. Will we still be together? If anything I know that we will be great friends. I...
Intimate relationships, platonic or not, are overrated. My doubts are there for a reason, and I should start to listen to them more. I don’t care if I start to push people away anymore.
With this in mind, if there someone out there to prove me wrong, they are truly special in my book.
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1/16/10
After my nap…
Organize room (especially closet)
Laundry?
Finish making 42B flashcards
Study them
Print out readings for 42B and Anthro30a class
Read Art1A readings
Read 42B readings (online reading) + annotations
Read 30A readings (interview + stoller[which cannot find]) + annotations
Create Art1A draft of self-portrait project
Finish ICS lab (which I may need a bit a help on)
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I'm done wearing my heart on my sleeve
Now its time to give the TLC that I have been deprived of for the past 4 years.
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Friday, here we come
Wake up @ 6:30
Study for 42B Discussion Quiz
Reread Barbash, Ginsburg, Jackson notes—questions, understanding of it
Finish 42B online reading + annotations
Study for 42B Discussion Quiz (again)
Breakfast @ 8-10 AM
Drink Coffee
Pack Lunch (banana, [more] bagel w/ jalapeno cream cheese, peanut butter sandwich, milk, crackers and cheese, cereal?)
Powernap 10:00-10:30
Art history...
Thank you for all the memories
Few, but very greatly appreciated, all making me smile, despite how hard I try to force a frown. Slowly but surely adopting the phrase, “live with no regrets.” With these dear memories, I will hold in a special place. The experience was something I needed—as I quote (something I wanted to publish in the future)—”This relationship is not a mistake, but will be a...
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"Hey at least its a big [recycling] bin!"
Wasted like…295x8 = 2360, err I mean 295x7 = 2065 printer paper today. D: At least work reminds me that it is okay to make mistakes.
“Most people will tell you that the secret to a happy relationship is...”
– Hehe, I like this quote.
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Mas Checklist
1/14/10:
Wake up @ 6:30
Pack “lunch” — crackers and cheese, water, chocolate milk, banana, bagel
Eat breakfast @ 7:00
Imageworks 8-12:30
prepare Art 1A discussion
Asian Art 42B - readings (online reading, book), study for discussion test (friday)
Look up Ginsburg, Jackson, and Barbash
Review Anthro 30A readings —be prepared with questions, and overall understanding
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GUITAR
is being shipped to E. TELTASON DRIVE. UGHHH. it better find its place. I did tell him that I was going to UC Irvine.. >:(
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Checklist 11310
as of 2:03 PM
ImageWorks 2-4
Go back dorm, relax (power nap), bring Macbook
ICS 21 lab 5-whenever
Yearbook Meeting @ 6
Eat dinner
Make coffee @ Pippins
ARC with [babe (and gondolin) with Juan, Sam, and Nick] Andrew, & Jackie @ 10:30—cardio (no running to rest leg + ankle) + arms (biceps)/back(lats)/abs
Cloudy with a Chance of meatballs with hall..no time :(
Read Art History...
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Little things
That made me smile, thus far! Happier note!
Paul Dateh Paul Dateh, Paul Dateh, Paul Dateh
Jari Tolentino :)
Being surprised by a “soft-spoken” (I think otherwise now), yet quirky hallmate’s youtube channel
Sophia needing to get chocolate chips into her waffle somehow each morning.
The noises my coworker makes when he eats.
Coworker and supervisor trying to open the YUMMY...
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Epiphany
People are better off without me…one major example being my ex. I remember talking to him countless times of all my relationships where people were simply better off. I feel like I haven’t made any real difference in a person’s life, I guess. The closest encounter that I have improved someone’s life was with my ex, and it was such hell, where I would prioritize him over...
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