As cliche as it sounds, I want someone to tell me everything will be all right.  I want to see the sincerity in their eyes and the confidence in their voice.  Again, I want to experience intimacy, whether platonic or romantic.  I hate how I feel like I need others’ acknowledgement to validate my own pursuits and character.  I want someone to see me for me.  I feel distant from a lot of people, or I feel that any closeness that we have is temporary or only last in that moment, anywhere else, it’s as if we never really knew each other.  I want to feel something so concrete and rooted, and to know that it’s something that I can look forward to.  I want it to be a source of inspiration.  I can only draw so much from my feeble attempts to make something better of myself. 

And most importantly, I don’t want to fill this void with hopeless imagery and thoughts, emotions of you.  It’s never going to happen, no matter how much I wish it could.  I just don’t compare to those girls and there is nothing to really admire about me, as you could with others who may have or already caught your eye.  Nothing special about me.  I feel like I’m just surviving now, and I just feel no drive or purpose really. Fuck.  I don’t know what I’m doing with myself, and I really don’t want to indulge and resolve it with myself, feeling that it’s just a cycle that I really wish someone else could break for me.